The Eyes in the Pit

Whenever I smoked the peace pipe, my mind would settle as I focused on the inhaling and exhaling. The smoothness and the the roughness of the smoke in my lungs reminding me I was alive and not dreaming. Many times my nightmare's were premonitions of the future, but so were my dreams. The one that frightened me the most was the one that started out with me looking into a deep, dark, bottomless pit.

I stared so long I got the sensation that I was falling in or that it was rushing up to consume me. Then deep in the pit these eyes of fire would burn black. It was like they are trying to draw me in to consume me or have me draw it out. I knew this creature would destroy the world unless it was contained. In this game, though, I would just be a pawn, not any knight or king.

In the dream the beast gave me an image of its apearance and appetite. It looked human, two arms, two legs, head, hands, it had every piece. It's form would change though, match whoever it was looking at; down to every slight blemish or imperfection. It's image was beautiful yet horrifying, both existing side by side. There was a sign that always gave it away, one eye was red around the dark center and the other was green. Sometimes its teeth would all be sharp like a cat's or a shark's, other times it had fangs like a snake's. It's hands were incorporeal, able to reach inside of people and twist them up. The most frightening feature was it's voice. The voice that sounded like a trusting child, yet leaving the image of a spider whose fangs were wet with poison just before it attacks. All together an unwholesome beast that would surely bring about the destruction of the world.

Towards the end of this dream I saw through the mist the way to defeat it. I couldn't be completley sure, but it was a small group of people surrounding the beast, radiating light. the were speaking words directly to it in a gentle and loving way. What could this mean?

Future and the thoughts that Surround

People have been asking me, what do I want out of life, what do I see myself doing in the future, what is that you want to do?

Thinking about that I have had a few things in mind. Many things go through my mind as I know with Jesus at my side, anything is possible. He makes the way and gives the desires anyway. :D Before I go off on a rant about the future and how sometimes the downfall of our future is the very thoughts we make towards it. I will spare all the readers that till later, I will start with what my thoughts truly are about what I would like in my future.

Writing: A few people mention that I seem to have a gift for writing and I do enjoy it. Currently I am looking for little ways to keep that going and see it I can make some money at it. This blog for example, also trying to write a book or two, and checking craigslist for any possibility that may appear. 

Technology: A couple opportunities have opened up with a co-worker of mine. On one hand we are working together on making apps for the iPhone. The second is to get certified as an Apple Technician and start our own Apple repair business. Both would be nice and quite profitable.

Utimately: My main dreams about the future would be to be a dad and a husband. This one thing is what seems like is the calling from Papa. This, also in my opinion, is the highest calling in Jesus follower can have. To be married and have children. That takes a relationship of deep trust between a person and Jesus to be His follower and helped to spread that with the ones closeset to you. God help me!

Otherwise: School sometimes makes its way into my thoughts. Psychology and Social Services is were my tendencies go. Maybe counselling. Who knows, but for the most part I try to just take it a day at a time and be okay with what God brings along.

Live in Peace and Rest